"Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
Fucking perfect"
- Pink
I'm sorry Pink but I already feel that way.
Ok, I can lay it out there. I act like a tough guy. I can act like things don't bother me; like I don't hear the mean words and evil stares. Only my husband gets the satisfaction of seeing me come home and bawl my eyes out. Then I get angry at myself for showing my weakness and then turn on my bitch mode again.
I recently posted about how much I detest this new diet fad the world (and my family) is going through. I thought after that people would understand that it's not about how you look or how you enjoy food but about living your life without fear of gaining pounds because there is somewhere there to love you anyway. I don't mind being fat; I don't even fear it. I do mind the negative attitude I get for feeling that way.
But somehow, I still get comments about what I'm eating and how I may/may not look like one day.
Does it make people feel better to tell me to stop eating the double cheeseburger?
Does it make them feel powerful by telling me to stop gorging myself?
Does it make them feel like they made a difference by telling me I'm doomed to be a fat cow for the rest of my life?
Well I'm glad they got to say their opinions and feel better about themselves while making me feel like shit in the process. You get to be right while I get to go home and have a good cry and then lash out at my husband (poor guy).
I can only finish this post by turning on my bitch mode and leaving you with this:
Next time I order the double bacon burger with extra cheese and extra fries or I say I'm eating Rocky Road ice cream in bed DON'T SAY A FUCKING WORD and let me live my life.
You make a great point here. No need in telling me that giant glass of chocolate milk I have every night before bed is really bad for me, I already know, but obviously its worth it to me 'cause Im going to continue to drink it every night.
ReplyDeleteWe all have our bad habbits, but i think for some people it makes them feel better about themselves if they point out/ talk about someone else's issues. Did that make sense?